We are creatures of infinite growth and possibility.Some of our internal facets look very negative and twisted. It used to be that we would deny or suppress these expressions to our dying breath.
In the end that negativity was still present and a lot of time and energy was wasted. Now it is more common practice to examine and understand the darkness that dwells in all of us.
You can’t negate a mental formation with more thought. It is similar to pouring gasoline on a fire. You also can not command a heart to feel or suppress.
Never be upset or feel guilty about the crazy nonsense your mind and heart do, they are tools functioning for very specific tasks. The only productive course of action you have to recognize the formation for what it is, smile and accept that it exists, then put it down.
I love you Mekh